Spread your wings, beautiful things

Posted by Isabel on June 6th, 2006. Filed under: My Sweet Babboo, Work.
There’s this CD of children’s music that I’ve been listening to a lot lately. Both The Baby and I seem to like it, so it plays most of the day.This morning I was singing along to the song about a butterfly who spreads her wings and flies.

Oh, how I wish I could spread my wings and fly away today.

There are just too many things going on this week and next week. I feel like I’m being pulled from every direction. When in reality the only direction that matters is the one The Baby is pulling me to.

What makes this all harder is that I’m scheduled to return to work next week. But that isn’t going to happen.

I just sent corporate HR an e-mail to let them know that I’m going to take one more week of FMLA time. It should make me feel better to know that I’ll have one more week at home with my glorious baby. But it doesn’t. It makes me feel even more sick about eventually leaving him.

I keep thinking to myself, when will things settle down? But I know that they never will. The King and I have a baby now. And full time jobs. And we’re building a house.

We’re gown-ups. We have responsibilities now.

And it’s hard.

Mommy, get off the computer and come back and snuggle me!

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5 Responses to Spread your wings, beautiful things

  1. Frema
    June 7th, 2006 at 5:19 am

    I’m so sorry you’re having a hard time. I wouldn’t want to leave a baby as cute as yours, either.

    Enjoy your extra week off and remember that you’ll have two days of work-at-home snuggling to do whenever you do go back.

    Good luck to you guys.

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  2. Erika
    June 7th, 2006 at 6:40 am

    WOW. I really see you and the King in that picture!

    I’m back to work two weeks from Monday…it seems like a different life.

  3. HollowSquirrel
    June 7th, 2006 at 7:45 am

    Totally hard! UGH! I feel for you. I’m glad you’re able to take another week. You probably need that with the visitors “disrupting” your routine with the baby. Things WILL get easier– it just takes time.

    BIG HUG from afar.

  4. Chas
    June 7th, 2006 at 10:15 am

    Yes, going back to work sucks. I’m dreading it so badly. I actually told my husband the other day that I wish I lived in the time of The Waltons (as in the TV show) so I didn’t have to go back to my job (then he reminds me that they didn’t have Tivo back then, and I quickly change my tune).

  5. Julie
    June 7th, 2006 at 10:32 am

    Sigh. Time to go back to work already? That went fast (duh, Julie, you’re probably saying). Enjoy your extra time, and I hope you find the transition back to the office easier than expected!